“Fear dominated my life. Denial clouded my perception. I ignored reality because it hurt when I thought about it. When painful thoughts emerged, as they inevitably did, I quickly and anxiously shoved them away. It was as if my thoughts were my enemies, and as they approached, I turned and ran as fast as possible in the opposite direction. Instead of expending my energy on living my life, I focused almost exclusively on avoiding pain, stuffing disturbing feelings, and keeping myself as numb as I could.” (From “How Al-Anon Works”).
Many of us who have lived with alcoholism became intimately acquainted with fear. We feared the alcoholics might harm us or someone else, or that they might hurt themselves. We feared the bills would not be paid, or we worried about who knew the truth of our situation. Some of us felt afraid to live our own lives. We were dying on the inside as we constantly said, “What if?” The energy it took for us to lead double lives was exhausting.
In Al-Anon, we begin to understand some of the crazy things we did, and that leads to compassion for who we used to be. Our growing awareness about the truth of our situation points us toward freedom. As we face reality, we begin to move forward with a new confidence. (From “Blueprint for Progress”)
Mason Al-Anon meets every Tuesday at 6:00 p.m. at the Historical Building. Please call 347-5805 or 258-4441 for more information.